The Nephews, My Little Stars.
25 May 2012 Leave a Comment
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The Nephews, My Little Stars.
Dear بأمين الأفكار
My nephews were playing and I was busy in the kitchen… they asked me to cut some oranges for them, which I did, as they were eating the gardener onto the patio, to give the plants water, he greeted and went about doing his work, the 2 lil boys got up each had 2 pieces oranges in their hands, they walked up to the gardener and said: “Please take this and sit and enjoy it before you carry on with your work.” The smile on the gardeners face was something so good to see… as he went out to eat it, I went to the boys and told them “Mashallah that was something so good you did, but please tell me, what was your thought behind giving.” Their answer: “Well Lala (when they started to learn to talk Kala become Lala, and the name stuck 
) we saw Nana giving someone some of his naartjie, Nana told us that as Muslim to be kind is a very noble and good habit, it was 1 of the ways of Rasulullah (SAW) and that is who we want to be like, Nana says when we eat something we should share, and Lala the gardener looked kind of hungry. ”
I was really pleased that the lesson they remembered, and the most of all the their role model :) Kids pick up things so fast, and nice enough alot from the grandparents, my beloved father and my beloved mother have so much of patience, it so amazing to watch the boys with them.
I don’t have brothers, so didn’t get to experience the “getting ready for Jummah” part… which I have come to love, and I finally got tying their ammah on right 
… to watch Nana and the boys go for Jummah all in white with their ammah’s is such a beautiful site mashallah
May Allah make them a source of light in the Ummah, keep them on the path to please Allah, bless them with knowledge that is beneficial for them, give them good characters, grant them piety, wisdom and good health, Aameen.
Muslimah… Signing of With Living Loving Her Nephews More Everyday
Walaikum as salaam
“My recipe for life is not being afraid of myself, afraid of what I think, or of my opinions.”
I Feared….And Getting Over It!!
12 May 2012 3 Comments
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I Feared….And Getting Over It!!
Dear بأمينالأفكار
I feared being alone until I learned to like myself.
I feared failure until I realized that I only fail when I don’t try.
I feared success until I realized that I had to try in order to be happy with myself.
I feared people’s opinions until I learned that people would have opinions about me anyway.
I feared rejection until I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain until I learned that it’s necessary for growth.
I feared the truth until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life until I experienced its beauty.
I feared death until I realized that it’s not an end, but a beginning.
I feared my destiny, until I realized that I had the power to change my life.
I feared hate until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared (I kind of still have this fear) love until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.
I feared ridicule until I learned how to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future until I realized that life just kept getting better.
I feared the past until I realized that it could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark until I saw the beauty of the starlight.
I feared the light until I learned that the truth would give me strength.
Muslimah… Signing of With Doing Her Best To Have Fear No More
Walaikum as salaam “My recipe for life is not being afraid of myself, afraid of what I think, or of my opinions.”
Emails From The Past …
02 May 2012 Leave a Comment
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Emails From The Past …
Dear بأمينالأفكار
I was going through my emails this past long weekend… and I started from a “yahoo” account my ex-husband set up for me… then I moved on to the hotmail one…
There were 2-3 emails that were with love and care… the rest well it broke my heart… I use to send sweet loving email to my husband, the sad thing was he use to reply to them criticising every sentence, at that time I was naive, and kept it so bottled inside of me, that now I know that this is what makes me afraid to “love” someone again.
Words are things someone can never forget, yes they can be forgiven but they leave an imprint on the heart and mind that is so deep that cannot be forgotten… It makes me think was I so unworthy of a little love and care? Or maybe I cared too much and hid the hurt from the world never wanting anyone to know the hurt you where putting me through. …
“Sticks and stones may break my bones,
But names will never hurt me.
And this I knew was always true
And truth would not desert me.
But now I know it is not so,
I’ve learned the other part;
For sticks and stones may break the bones,
But words can break the heart.
Yes, sticks and stones may break the bones
And leave the spirit whole;
But unkind words can break the spirit,
And silently crush the soul.”
Muslimah… Signing of With Hurting From A Flashback From The Past 
Walaikum as salaam “My recipe for life is not being afraid of myself, afraid of what I think, or of my opinions.”
Know Who You Are
01 Apr 2012 1 Comment
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Know Who You Are
Dear بأمينالأفكار
Its been a very long time since I “posted” something here… I missed it…
It has very a crazy time lately… something so sad happened to a young girl that I know, that I saw grow up… {Which I want to keep private} It made me so sad, made me cry.
Knowing who we are individually is so important, following trends, or following our friends, makes us not us.
Doing things to gain attention does not define who we are rather it makes us attention seeking not knowing souls… is that who we want to be?
If you are lost, confused or know that your thoughts, wants or needs are irrational or against religion, please I beg you to talk to someone who you trust, and who is level headed. It will Inshallah stop you from doing the most stupid, embarrassing and heart breaking things, remember when you make choices it is not only you , you will be affecting, it’s your family, your friends, you community, people that love you, so please think wisely!!!!!
Know who are Recipe
Ingredients:
- 1 part of knowing who you are
- 1 part of knowing who you aren’t
- 1 part of knowing what you want
- 1 part of knowing who you wish to be
- 1 part of knowing what you already have
- 1 part of choosing wisely from what you have
- 1 part of loving and thanking for ALL you have
- And the main secret ingredient knowing you are Muslim and Islam is your religion and Rasulullah (SAW) is your role model and guide
- Instructions:
- Combine ingredients together gently and carefully, using faith and vision.
- Mix together with strong belief of the outcome until finely blended.
- Use thoughts, words and actions for best results.
- Bake until Blessed.
- Always Give thanks to Allah
Muslimah… Signing of With Making Dua That She Always Chooses Wisely
Walaikum as salaam “My recipe for life is not being afraid of myself, afraid of what I think, or of my opinions.”
NO In The Power Of YES!!!
26 Feb 2012 4 Comments
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NO In The Power Of YES!!!
Dear بأمينالأفكار
I learnt now after my divorce that I can say NO to many things that don’t feel right, seem right and are not right….
Many of us who are or where married feel that to keep our spouse happy or for peace or just so our marriage won’t break, we say YES to so many things that hurt us or make us feel abused…. it may or may not affect us at that moment in time, but sometime down in time it does… speaking from experience i wish i had said NO to so many things… because now, i get nightmares what i had to do, i get shivers when the thought come to me during the day…
So YES in “THE POWER OF YES” there is the “POWER OF NO” , don’t be afraid to use it.
We say YES to love, trust, honesty and respect.
We say NO to untrustworthiness, lies, disrespect and abuse.
Muslimah… Signing of With Living Saying NO In The Power Of YES
Walaikum as salaam
“My recipe for life is not being afraid of myself, afraid of what I think, or of my opinions.”
Living My Dream…And I Believe In Me
07 Feb 2012 1 Comment
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Living My Dream…And I Believe In Me
Dear بأمينالأفكار
A few years ago, I never thought that I would or could live my dream, but then things changed, I went through a terrible testing time for some time, but I came out of it positive, happy ,confident, and I know that all the great things that are happening and part of my life now is all because that I did not give up nor turn my focus away from Allah, and in my heart were my dreams and hopes, things no man can see only Allah can, working on my dreams and hopes has-is a long road, but it is a happy road, and I have Allah guiding me all the way
So yeah I am living my dream and I believe in me
“For many years of my life
I wore my heart for all to see
Making it much too easy
For another to take advantage of me.
I lived and I loved once
To the loftiest heights
And it came crashing to the ground
When my love took the wing of flight.
I put my whole being into love
Never thinking of myself
Whatever I truly needed
Was put high upon a shelf.
I thought another person
Could make me whole
Until I spent hours alone
Looking deep within my soul.
Life is different now
I found the woman I used to be
I know once again who I am inside
In myself I now believe.
I know what I have to offer
I am kind …. I love …. I care
No one will crush my spirit again
For now I’m wiser and aware.”
Muslimah… Signing of With Living Her Dream Guided By Allah And Believing In Herself
Walaikum as salaam
“My recipe for life is not being afraid of myself, afraid of what I think, or of my opinions.”
To Those In My Life And To Those Who Are Entering It.
24 Jan 2012 1 Comment
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To Those In My Life And To Those Who Are Entering It.
Dear بأمينالأفكار
Today I would like to take the time to thank those who are in my life, if I could mention all the things I am thankful for the list would never end, nor would words be enough to let you know how much you mean to me, what you are to me, or how thankful I am to be part of your life, so I say simply “thank you and I hope our relations never end.”
To those that are entering my life, as you know I don’t trust easy nor do I love easy, I have opened the door to you in my life, so I humbly ask you to bare with me, have a little patience with me, and I will trust and love you, because I know I can and I know you are worth it.
Muslimah… Signing of With Opening The Door To A Bright And Happy Future Inshallah :)
Walaikum as salaam
“My recipe for life is not being afraid of myself, afraid of what I think, or of my opinions.”
Alhamdulillah For The New Addition To The Family :)
15 Jan 2012 1 Comment
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Alhamdulillah For The New Addition To The Family
Dear بأمينالأفكار
Oooh Alhamdulillah I am a proud happy aunty again to a beautiful little boy
Babies what a blessing, what a comfort, so sweet, and what a beautiful gift from Allah.
Ok so I am little crazy about my nephews, what to do when they melt my heart with their sweet innocent smile, closing their fingers around your finger.
Oh Allah bless, guide them, keep them on the Sirat-ul-mustakem, let them always be a source of pleasure to You, their parents and all those around them, Aameen.
Muslimah… Signing of With Thanking Allah For Her New Nephew :)
Walaikum as salaam
“My recipe for life is not being afraid of myself, afraid of what I think, or of my opinions.”
Talking And Healing
18 Dec 2011 4 Comments
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Talking And Healing
Dear بأمينالأفكار
This is one thing I am totally bad at… I am not use to talking about what is bothering me … which believe me is bad, so if you can talk about what is bothering you, take my advice and talk about it, otherwise you be like me, keeping the hurt , anguish and pain in, makes you ill, really ill, it’s been more than 2 years since my divorce, and I never really spoke how I really felt, this last week I found out some really sad and terrible truth on “someone” and the pain was soooo much yet I kept it in, last night I cried really so much by my mom, dad was busy but I am sure my mom told him cause this morning I got a longer hug {it’s a wonder the comfort of a parents hug}… Mom was comforting and I know that I need to talk about what I went through, and I promised her I will talk a little more everyday of what I went through, I need to heal, I need to trust and love again, I need to be with the one I know won’t hurt me.
Gosh this is so hard admitting I have a problem, but it feels good as well knowing that I know I do.
Muslimah… Signing of With Relying On Allah With Every Step :)
Walaikum as salaam
“My recipe for life is not being afraid of myself, afraid of what I think, or of my opinions.”
Opening My Heart
08 Dec 2011 5 Comments
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Opening My Heart
Dear بأمينالأفكار
Ok so if u knew me +-10years ago, my heart was open to all… wen I say open, I mean I trusted every1… Due to my divorce, I closed my heart up to the “outside” world, I don’t think bad of ppl but I am just really and truly afraid of being hurt and bruised again.
Now the marriage proposals are coming in so many, really nice guys, but and I am really afraid of opening my heart to the thought of marriage, I know all are not the same, but I afraid of going through what I went through… I wish I could just find the courage to take the step forward….
I read this poem over and over again, and I hope that 1 day soon I will be able to take the step:
“Today, many will awaken with a fresh sense of inspiration. Why not me?
Today, many will open their eyes to the beauty that surrounds them. Why not me?
Today, many will choose to leave the ghost of yesterday behind and seize the immeasurable power of today. Why not me?
Today, many will break through the barriers of the past by looking at the blessings of the present. Why not me?
Today, for many the burden of self doubt and insecurity will be lifted by the security and confidence of empowerment. Why not me?
Today, many will rise above their believed limitations and make contact with their powerful innate strength. Why not me?
Today, many will choose to live in such a manner that they will be a positive role model for their children. Why not me?
Today, many will choose to free themselves from the personal imprisonment of their bad habits. Why not me?
Today, many will choose to live free of conditions and rules governing their own happiness. Why not me?
Today, many will find abundance in simplicity. Why not me?
Today, many will be confronted by difficult moral choices and they will choose to do what is right instead of what is beneficial. Why not me?
Today, many will decide to no longer sit back with a victim mentality, but to take charge of their lives and make positive changes. Why not me?
Today, many will take the action necessary to make a difference. Why not me?
Today, many will make the commitment to be a better mother, father, son, daughter, student, teacher, worker, boss, brother, sister, & so much more. Why not me?
Today is a new day! Many will seize this day. Many will live it to the fullest. Why not me?
Muslimah… Signing of With Inshallah Hoping To Take The Step Forward
Walaikum as salaam
“My recipe for life is not being afraid of myself, afraid of what I think, or of my opinions.”
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